I have millions of complaints and much more whining to do, But that wouldn't exactly go with the theme of the entry.
ohmygod. my cat just whacked me in the eye with her tail.

anyways,

The reason for this entry is Movie Night Friday at the party house...

"dude check it out you're mom brought us cookies and juice boxs!"

"score! Lets get this movie started!"

There will be a video of the dancing that went on as soon as I cant get it working.

This Saturday will have been one year since Zely was born.
Its sad to see how much my baby girl has grown. And good to see How life is changing for her mom, and her dad, who is finally stepping up and being responsible.

Its crazy to think one year ago, I as helping kristy through one of the most difficult and scary things we've ever been though. All the amazing emotions that went on. All the blood and "oh my god i'm gonna be sick" body shaking moments.But It was one of the most amazing moments in my life, holding her for the first time. Seeing her actually come into this world. It amazes me.

Now here we are, a year later, I have a goddaughter to spoil rotten. She's become my best friend, And I think I'm hers. Depends on whether or not theres food in my hand. I've got to help set up for her party which should be fun. Its on Saturday.

And Friday i spend the day with her, so that's awesome. I'm gonna give her presents and a little cupcake. Cause I know she'll be thrilled about the cupcake lol.

I miss him.

I hadn't planned on writing about him here. I didn't wanna be sad every time i came to my journal but I think he deserves it. He was my first baby. I have my cat Cha-Cha and my dog Gordo...But mom takes care of them. Sparky was the first pet that was all mine, my responsibility. And I failed horribly. Its silly to go on and say ''well we had good times, and thats what matters'' cause that really doesn't help the fact that he died. It sucks. He was always happy to see me. He'd walk to the front of the cage when he saw i was there and just wait for me to pick him up. I miss that.

I plan on getting another turtle, because as completely psycho as it sounds, It gave me some sort of importance, to have him depend on me. But it wont be for a little while.

I buried him in a box that held one of my biggest dreams, right by moms rose bushes.
Now he gets to eat all the grapes and strawberries he wants with no fear of constipation. That's heaven for him.

Look at how gorgeous that child is.

Its just not fair.

I look at baby pictures of me and my cousins when we were babies. Sure we were cute. But I looked like a boy for the first 4 years of my life and kristy had a serious drooling problem.

Oh well. I get to brag about having the most beautiful niece.