This is my excuse for stealing the baby all the time :)
And spoiling her rotten.
Shes growing up already :(
She smiles and giggles and she doesn't cry when I hold her. Often. And when she does I go "ahhhhh" and she stops...Its pretty funny.
Shes still perfect.
Me on the other hand...I've been better.
I've been getting...panic attacks? I don't know.
Yesterday I had a real shitty day at work, And I came home and I was just tired and hungry, and when I was explaining it all to my parents I broke down. Just a few tears at first, then it got uncontrollable. I was shaking and sobbing and I couldn't breath and I felt numb. Then I got even more upset cause as much as I tried I couldn't stop and that just made it worse.
As much as I sleep its never enough.
Work is sucking, all my work buddies left. And they don't wanna hire more people which means I get more hours and while yeah cool more money...I really don't want to be there any more than I already am. I don't NEED the job, I just have it to get me outta the house.
After that there isn't to much going on.
I've made a new friend. His name is Gil. I figure I should get that out there, If He's gonna be a part of my life you'll hear more of him and Don't want you to be all "who?"
He's hot. Just saying.... :-0
I have a psychiatrist appointment on Monday, Because like my mother, I am crazy. Only I have insomnia also. They put me on Lexapro but If I'm going thru what I'm going thru I don't think its working very well. And the sleeping pills stopped working, Actually they aren't even sleeping pills. I don't remember what they are but basically its just to calm me down, not put me to sleep.
I guess I'm done, not to much else is going on...Right now we are watching Zely so I'm gonna go steal her from mom....Cause I'm the godmother!! :)