Friday, January 9, 2009

Ugh.


I got my heart broken :(
He cheated on me. And then just completely just stopped talking to me.
Who the hell does that? Like as much as they fight for you to trust them, and then one day wake up and decide 'no nevermind'?
Oh well, that's really all i can say. As long as he thinks he didn't hurt me, I want him to think he didn't mean that much to me.

And my idiot ex jackass came back telling me i was to old to hold a grudge.
No....I'm not :)
When I stop dressing up for Halloween then I'll be to old.

My job is about to lay me off. Which is actually a relief. I loved my job but I hated the people I worked with. When the youngest one in the group is acting like the adult you know you have some problems. One of the ladies I work with though is gonna pay me 12 dollars an hour to watch her two boys (both under 7...I'm scared.) two days a week.

I don't know. Life is stressful. I haven't really talked to any of my friends. I feel like an annoyance. So I keep to myself.
I'm sad and disgusted with this last relationship.
Everyone is pushing me to get my life started. I have no clue how to, Or that i even want to.

At the moment the only thing that brings me real happiness is my niece. She's gotten so big, And she's so funny. Her smile makes me crack up, but her sad face is even funnier, and she has so much to say. She looks exactly like Krissy when Krissy was a baby.








11 comments:

Amy said...

Being cheated on is insulting enough, but seriously....with a 15 yr old? Don't I know anyone in law enforcement? omg.

Donna said...

I think most of us can relate. I don't know anybody who hasn't had her heart broken. If I think back too hard, it still hurts, even though everything turned out for the best and I'm happy now.

It gets better. And you'll get tougher.

My78NovaTa said...

we have all been there done that. IT ALWAYS leads to something better. REALLY it does I KNOW. I had boyfriends do it and a hubby when i had a six year old and was 3 months pg. That sucks. Let me tell you that YOU MY DEAR WONDERFUL WOMAN are worth far more than that. THE BEST I MEAN THE BEST pay back is to live a happy life onward and forward. GIRL YOU GO GET EM!!!!!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. STUPID JERK WANT ME TO tear his heart out!!!!!

Indigo said...

Sometimes you have to pick through the garbage to find the hidden gem dear one. I know I've been where you are. I find when I get sorrowful and need to just BREATHE...it feels like that doesn't it. I'm outside, in the middle of nature taking in the simplicity of life. I find those things that give me pleasure, a certain food, flower, movie, song and I treat myself well. For you truly do deserve more than you've been given thus far. Someday the prince will arrive and you'll ponder ever worrying over the paupers in life. Life is almost never fair. We even up the odds any way we can. It's up to us to change it up. Thinking of you! (Hugs)Indigo

IndigoSunMoon said...

Ryan,
Honey I think at one time or another we all get cheated on. I know I did and it hurt like hell. But you know what I did that made me feel better? I showed the bastard that his cheating on me didnt beat me down. I got out and had a blast with my friends, even when I didnt feel like it...and I made damn sure he knew about it. I clung tightly to my Mom and poured my heart out to her and my closest and most trusted friends too because I was not going to let him know that he had hurt me.
And you know what? It still hurt, but it helped. It helped a lot...and I got past it, and you will too darling girl.
You are beauty-ful! and you have so much going for you. And I guarantee you will learn so much from this, and someday you will look back on it and realize that it made you a better person by having to go through it. It certainly will make you a little more observant of others.
I know you dont know me...but I'm here because of your Mom who loves you very much.
Connie

D said...

Oh, honey! If you want to talk let me know. I've been cheated on and the jerk that just broke up with me is a control freak! Kids are great. I hug my nephew and I just feel better. He's so cute. Hang in! It'll get better!

Beth said...

Yep, I think most of us have been there. That doesn't mean that we're dismissive of your feelings, it means that we know how it feels, and we also know that you will eventually feel better. It may not feel like it at the moment, and do what you need to do in order to let yourself heal (personally, I was always the type to withdraw).

Hang in there, sweetie. It will get better with each day that goes by, especially when you resolve to live and enjoy your life. Remember, the best revenge is a life lived well.

All my best,
Beth

Melissa said...

sorry ur having a hard time. hope things get better, ur neice is cute. :)

Mr Brainwhispers said...

Alright Bob!

Yes Bob. That is what I am calling you today, Bob.
Got a problem with that?
:o)

There is no age limit on grudges. I will hold all mine forever.

As for the ex, well he's a prick. That's all that needs to be said. You will find that as you get older, you will meet lots of them.

Good thing is you are only young. No need to be worrying too much about the stresses of life.

Have you thought about training as a plumber?
I had to call one out yesterday and he charged me £45 for 5 minutes work!! Thats about $70 dollars.
You would be loaded.

Ryans Plumbing and Heating

"Shitters broke? Can't flush your Pee. I'm Ryan the Plumber. Hey, Call me"

See I have given you a slogan and everything.

Do it! I say in my best Arnold Schwarzawotsit voice.

x

FrankandMary said...

I'm Italian, of course I know someone who could kill him for you :-). Umn, 15? He is sick. This is a good thing. You need someone worthy of you, and that is not just anyone, sweetheart. You are worth so very much more.

Antonette said...

That's a boy for you. Trust me, he's not worth your time.

By the way, I am going to be 38 in May and I still hold grudges.